Maximum effort

Guys, 2016 has been a bit of a doozy all around, amiright? For me it's been a lot of introspection and less social media, blogging and general internet stuff, and more spending time with/trying to navigate how to handle my new family, house, etc. Being a newlywed, mortgage-sharer and step parent with as much baggage as my husfriend and I have has been a challenge, but doable. This has been a year of transition and change, for sure.

Living with a man again has been a big change. Who cooks dinner? Who cleans? What about the kids? When do I get to quit my job and be a trophy wife? All questions we're still working through. I'll let you know.

The whole first half of this year we were also dealing with selling our other houses - meaning lots of blood, sweat and tears to get it done. Six straight months of spending ALL of our spare time and money fixing things, painting, laying tile and so on. My husfriend is amazeballs at that stuff, which is the bees knees. Once the houses sold, that was a significant weight off our shoulders. We could start to work on our current house, unpack and figure out how to live together. Workouts suffered. Clean eating suffered. We both gained weight this year, but at least we didn't kill each other. It's been an overall win.

Finding a good workout schedule has been difficult, and I've still been dealing with a torn meniscus in my knee and after a quick, no big deal, easy 2 mile wog (walk+jog) on Thanksgiving, something was off with it. It was swollen and hurt so much that I could barely walk, enough to make me go back to the doctor. He essentially said that either the torn bit moved and is catching in a weird way now, or I tore it a little more. Both are plausible, and the only way to really fix it is to remove it. Like with surgery. For the third time.

Ugh. This is what I've been trying to avoid, gat dammit.

But then, I think back to the past couple of years since my last knee surgery, and I have never been able to get back to 100%. I think I got back to 50%, tops. Every workout hurt. Every run hurt. Squatting is the worst. Stairs can eat a dick. So maybe surgery is a good option - fix it so I can move forward for real. That's the conclusion I came to. I talked about it with my doctor, and he agrees, but he said that running can't be my main form of exercise anymore due to lack of cartilage and impending early onset arthritis.

That was rough to hear. 

Running is how I lost all of my weight. Running is how I met two of my closest friends. Running is how I got all of those medals hanging on my wall. Running is my thing. But, wait a minute. Sure, running is a huge calorie burner, but weight loss happens in the kitchen. Maybe I've just been making excuses this whole time and I just need to sack up and figure it out. I used to be legit in love with Jonathan Taylor Thomas, but that passed and now IDGAF about him. I mean, I'm sure he's great. But I could take him or leave him. Running is going to be my new JTT - a thing I used to love, replaced by a new thing I love. People, habits, priorities and hobbies change. It's all good, maybe I'll discover something amazing - like boxing. Or cycling. Or zumba. Or yoga. Or lifting weights. 2017, I'll make it happen. Because I have to.

So I put my big girl panties on, and this afternoon I'm having knee surgery. The last possible day of the year, and they're removing my meniscus and whatever else needs to happen to make it so I can move forward, literally. Y'all, fingers crossed they don't have to mess with my ACL at all - that recovery is brutal. And then? Maximum effort in 2017.


  1. Good luck with your surgery. I was less JTT and more Devon Sawa and Joshua Jackson (Still am a HUGE JJ fan #notsorry). Here's to 2017! :)

    1. I was on board with all three circa 1998!

  2. Take it from me, osteoarthritis in your knee sucks, big time! So I'm glad you're having the surgery so to possibly avoid it. I got two knees with arthritis in both...had cortisone shots this fall. Works on the joints but does weird things to the rest of headaches, grouchiness, etc. Hope you heal quickly...and stop wearing those damn spike heels...little one!

    1. Boo! You sure the grouchiness comes from the steroid? ;)


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